but they get in a little fight. tip: "sherlock (tv)" m/m NOT "sherlock holmes/john watson", 1. ellen and oscar he wasnt sure if he was being honest. see, you know i love you, and i cant believe you would ever doubt me about that. why? Touching him was like, realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you. i am really enjoying writing this. dont touch me. when he finally got a moment alone with liam in his room, he pushed liam off of him in the middle of their kiss, and crossed his arms around himself. 5. tommy june and alex get in a fight. Please consider turning it on! But loving him was red, red, red. 2. june he pushed it aside and went on with the rest of the day as it shouldve gone. youre right, im sorry. henrys eyes shot up, the happiness in them quickly replaced with worry once he saw alexs drooped frame. do you want me to feel bad? hi, is this seat taken? alex didnt even get a second to respond before she continued, im jordan, we have english together. he truly did not care about the girl sitting in front of him, all he really cared about was finding liam. he had ran out of the coffee shop and all the way back home to the brownstone is probably less than 5 minutes. Work Search: Album: Taylor Swift Tribute Album: Greatest Hits Streamed, loving him was like that happened to be one of the first things he noticed about him. enjoy!! Please consider turning it on! and its so much easier to not let it all happen to me, and trying to leave you was so selfish of me, but its so much easier. Memes | Lyrics | TikTok Trends | Instagram Filters. Losing him was blue like I've never known Missing him was dark grey all alone Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met But loving him was red Yeah red Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song once he knew he was alone, his legs gave out, forcing his body to the ground. he was only partially aware while the principle gave a speech. instead, alex broke the silence for him, continuing on, someone kissed me today and i didnt want it. he looked around briefly for liam, but instead he was greeted by a girl, he saw by the juniors days ago. like home. but everything in his gut shifted when he saw the way liam beamed at him with joy mid speech. he threw the door open, staring at henry who sat at their dinner table, the table all set with two plates filled with food. Until it happened again and again, which wouldnt be a problem if it werent for Steves long hidden and ignored feelings for Tony. i know. nora doesn't let him talk about it. tommy simply just stared at alex. for most of the names called he zoned out, just barely making out the syllables coming out of his principles mouth, but once he heard liams name he was suddenly self aware. But I'm assuming he couldn't keep going because it's not what he really wanted. he immediately pushed his arms to wrap around himself, letting his tears fall freely, sobs shaking his shoulders against the couch. yeah yeah red he tried not to dwell on it, but he believed if june had found him dead rather than black out drunk, she would be so much more relived. the barista practically giving alex sex eyes (he isnt exactly sure what that means, but hes sure thats what nora would call them.). . you are going to stay here and you are going to talk to me. That's why he was so happy when you two started your thing. tommy simply just stared at alex. alex felt his body almost sag in relief, melting into henrys embrace. he practically melted into the couch, making himself look smaller than he actually was. im so sorry. though that thought quickly fizzled out as sleep overtook him. missing him was dark gray all alone it was 10:47. way past the time he shouldve been in bed and asleep, but through the hushed shouts coming from the kitchen and junes sobs next door, sleep just seemed impossible to him. Notes: (See the end of the chapter for notes .) like the colors in autumn so bright she sat down across from him, a smile plastered across her face. alex spotted liam moving towards where both of their families sat together, liams family basically separating oscar and ellen. you did not consent for it. henry im sorry. Summary: 5 times alex was rejected the touch he needed + 1 time henry gave it to him. A C#m B Burning it was red! Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there's no right answer Regretting him was like wishing you never found out that love could be that strong the moment we have all been waiting for. and im horrible for thinking like that, but im just so bad at love. henry could only stare dumbfounded at alex, his eyes wide. i guess im just worried, but im sorry. 6. henry. loving him was like Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song Fighting with. dont. alex finally gets the comfort he needs in his times of hurt. pretty much right away, every student was on their feet, rushing to find each other, or moving to find their families who were now slowly shuffling out of the bleachers, or the small few who held out hope in still finding their cap. he stuck the side of his head close to the bars on the stair railing trying to listen in. While we've done our best to make the core functionality of this site accessible without javascript, it will work better with it enabled. he let out a small cry, sounding almost like an injured puppy. Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song. its okay now, ill leave and you dont have to worry about it now. tip: austen words:10000-50000 sort:title. what? 4. liam Member of Group DIGNITY, s.r.o. trying to know somebody you've never met 4. liam why would it be your fault? contrary to what alex thought hed see, henry did not look angry or upset, but more supportive than ever. Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Alex Claremont-Diaz & June Claremont-Diaz, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Original Male Character(s), Alex Claremont-Diaz Loves Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor Loves Alex Claremont-Diaz, Married Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor. well i had to have been asking for it, right? he didnt know. he sat down in the media center during his free period, taking out the calculus homework he was just assigned the period before. no. you are going to stay here and you are going to talk to me. he knew they talked about him a lot, but he usually initiated the conversations and they would just go from there. he couldve cried on the spot. If you have any query, leave us a comment. i understand alex. im so sorry. its okay now, ill leave and you dont have to worry about it now. you did not deserve this, at all. no. liam i know how hard it is for you- really. but loving him was red. left kudos on this work! sure henry hugs him on a daily, and he holds alex when theyre sleeping, but its never like this. he knew they talked about him a lot, but he usually initiated the conversations and they would just go from there. where he made new friends, and he only got minimal amounts of homework compared to june, and he could stay up until 9 oclock watching television. The original title of the song is Red. i love you so bloody much it hurts. 2. june alex melted into the kiss for a moment, pulling away when henry did. she might actually feel free from him for once in her life. that had to be the case. Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song Fighting with him was like trying to . i just don't think i can do this anymore liam- i love you so much, but it's so hard. i would have never wanted you to feel like this. continued until liam showed up and pulled jordan off him. liam always claimed he just wasnt ready yet but alex did not believe he would ever be ready. is that what youwant? trying to change your mind alex fell asleep with his hands clutching his blanket against his chest, and some lotion june had rubbed on his cheek only a few moments before, making the injury sting more than he thinks it should. the bars were cold against his face and made him cringe. . and that's why he's spinning round in my head thatsamebarista throwing herself at him from across the table. Make sure your selection the argument was promptly finished with a resounding slap echoing through the house. the girl, jordan, either did not hear him or just did not care because she stayed planted in her seat. he then allowed tommy to drag him to the bedroom and allowed tommy to take him. after that the rest of the names called went by relatively fast. henry would hate him. but thats not true. 2. june was now watching them from the bottom of the stairs, 3. his mom was gripping the hood of his hoodie, holding him back from trying to hug his dad, he put in all his weight to push his mom off him and promptly ran into oscars side, hugging his legs. you cannot possibly think that thats true, because youre so so important to me. liam reached his arm out to try and grab alexs shoulder but he abruptly thrust his body backward, practically falling on his back. just as quickly as he got there, he felt himself get pulled off, falling to the ground. i messed everything up, and now youre mad at me. no. tears silently ran down his cheeks at the feeling of comfort. alex looked into his eyes, the joy in his eyes from before now replaced with shame. 2. june was now watching them from the bottom of the stairs, 3. his mom was gripping the hood of his hoodie, holding him back from trying to hug his dad, he put in all his weight to push his mom off him and promptly ran into oscars side, hugging his legs. she was blabbing on about getting his number, or a date, or something? the moment we have all been waiting for. believe it or not, i dont spend all my time around you just because i feel bad for you, he mumbles, his tone suggesting in a way that he doesonly hang around alex because he feels bad for him. being bibeing who i am- it's so important to me and who i am, and by hiding who i'm with, it feels like i'm losing that part of me," he took a deep breath, tears threatening to fall from his eyes, "and i just can . 5. tommy because if so, yes alex. he attempted to pull alex into a hug but alex simply just pulled himself away. im sorry. alex stood up, moved upstairs ignoring henrys shouts. he was practically vibrating with joy as he led his senior class in moving the tassel, then leading them into throwing their caps into the air. 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